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Sunday, February 27, 2011

HCG Diet Loading Day 2

Vlog 64



Saturday, February 26, 2011

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

FAILURE

That's right I FAILED. I did not daily vlog for the last two days. It's been a real shitty weekend, even though Saturday night was filled with lots of fun at a friend's house. And yesterday I went to lunch with my MISSters. I'm sorry! I wasn't in the mood to film either event. I kind of just wanted to try and enjoy myself, with the exception of lunch, I would have filmed that but I had the worst headache ever!

I'm not trying to make excuses but vlogging daily isn't easy! The filming part isn't too bad but the FOUR hours of editing, saving and uploading can take a toll on a sane person and I'm not sane!

The main reason I haven't vlogged is because I've been going through some personal issues that I'm not going to vlog or write about in detail and I've got nothing left to give. Essentially I need a job! I never expected to still be unemployed almost a year after being laid off(last May). I spend between 8 and 10 hours per day searching for and applying for jobs. Do you know how exhausting and depressing that becomes? You start to feel hopeless, unwanted, unnecessary, worthless and what's the fucking point? 

We're about to lose everything we've worked so hard for and it's my fault. I know I didn't chose to get laid off, I had no control over that. But honestly, it all goes back to the failed adoption. I should have listened to Jory in the first place, we should never have gone down that road. I should have never quit my job when she called and said she was delivering the baby. I should never have believed her. I did this, it IS my fault. I can't ever take that decision back. I can't ever rectify that mistake.

So I just keep looking for a job and hope that tomorrow I will get a phone call. Because how does one live with themselves being the cause of losing everything for their family? I'm tired of being a failure at life.



Tuesday, February 08, 2011

MISS Moms Night Out at the Chocolate Festival

Vlog #47 Friday night me and some other MISS Moms headed over to Glendale for a mexican dinner and LOTS of Chocolate at the Chocolate Festival. We had an excellent time! Enjoy!



Monday, February 07, 2011

Last Day in Pootah!

Vlog #45 Did you know my videos look BETTER in HD? You can either click the Title "Last Day in Pootah" above or since I'm feeling generous, you can CLICK RIGHT HERE to watch in HD. ENJOY!



Also did you know YouTube PAYS people with a lot of subscribers to make videos? This is why I'm always asking you to SUBSCRIBE! Maybe one day I'll have enough subscribers and YouTube will actually PAY ME MONEY to keep posting videos. You never know.

Back in Arizona!

Vlog #46



Saturday, February 05, 2011

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

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